Well, I have'nt been here for a lot of personal reasons,
1. I joined the national guard and go to basic in 7 weeks, busy getting ready for it.
2. My first love and I broke up.
3. I'm making plans to go to school in August.
4. I've just been too depressed to bother.
5. and I don't know what to write.
6. My job has me busy as well.

This all leads to:
a friend decided i needed a boost and slid me some e, he said just chew, and i chewed, then spent the next 7 hours making things right with everyone in my family and all my friends, My grandmother actually started crying after I apologized. I'm also going to spend some time doing pt with my grandfather, daily. ALL IN ALL it was a very positive experience, but i'm very tired right now and am going through the downstage which is kinda cool and mellow, but I kinda keep wanting someone to talk to. I still feel like I have so very very much that I want to tell so many people. I hope I can handle it all by february 3. THis is also a personal thanks for everyone on here who reads my work. Thank you for delving into and appreciating the mind of someone who was a perfect stranger, but whom I hope you now know much more about.